10 things I'll miss about taiwan:

1. the tour guides!! omg hei mao rocks!

2. BIG TRAIN ADVERTISMENTS EVERYWHERE!

3. fudan people!! so re qing!

4. channel V!

5. pert advertisments.

6. shopping at night markets!

7. cup noodles..... lai yi ke!

8. watching mvs in the morning

9. shopping!

10. dian jiao shi and cheap stationery!

10 things i missed about singapore:

1. family

2. squadmates! hai shi squadmates zui hao.

3. my laptop....

4. TWILIGHT SAGA in ENGLISH.

5. dustbins.

6. nice urban scenery.

7. radio!

8. my house!

9. my squishy bed and sleeping alone!

10. audi!

o.o bought so many things!!! presents for squids and ponyo plushie and soap and BOOKS and stationery and lalala.

I LOVE TAIWAN!

And i haven't laughed so much in ages. Okay la not ages, i laughed quite a lot during the skit on friday, but that was laughter mixed with worry and anxiety and dreading the 3 hours ceremony after school, so it wasn't really laughter laughter anymore.

It's so strange that one episode of hotshot can make me laugh and cry within one hour. Laughing when xiaozhu walked straight into the glass door, laughing when he was doing pumpings in the middle of the game. I think xiaozhu gives me the most laughter. Feeling gan donged when he appeared with the flowers. Though if i had been the girl i would have been abit disgusted. But oh well. and admiring him when he slamdunks! (is it even spelled like that.... o.o) and when he leapt over the bush! and when he was fighting the bad guys! omg damn cool la.

somehow hotshot makes me want to play basketball, (and embarrass myself). Lol. i sort of wish i could play any ball game nicely. any game at all. Like catch a ball without feeling the instinct to dodge. or throw a ball nicely so it goes into a pretty PARABOLA and doesn't flop sadly down like an overweight airpork.

moo.

oh well.

Maybe i should invest in good quality coffee.

You still won't get anything in the end, won't you?

Or maybe it isn't fear at all. It's that same kind of suffocating feeling that envelopes me in a cloud of uncertainty and helplessness. Like I know it's going to screw, but i can't do anything about it kind of feeling. Yet, the strange thing is, I did try to do something about it. I tried, hard. I made efforts, but none of my efforts ever seem to work. Afraid to lose that mental struggle, and afraid that i'll give up halfway like i stupidly do everytime. And at the same time, afraid that if i keep going on, I'll fall to my death or faint or die or something, because I'm not up to it.

Gosh.

Don't die okay YanNi. When you come back alive I allow you to play audi for as long as you want.

you all make me feel loved. =D i love yall back okay!